I'm not an option of Multiple Choice

Seperti yang gue bilang diatas, gue bukan sebuah option dari sebuah pilihan ganda. Kenapa gue menulis nyoret-nyoret kaya gini?? Karena gue hampir dijadikan option oleh seseorang. Dan gue ga mau. Gue bukan akar yang bisa ngegantiin rotan seperti dalam peribahasa "ga ada rotan akarpun jadi", ataupun kopi yang bisa ngegantiion teh kayak perumpamaan pelajaran ekonomi waktu SMA dulu.

I'm not an option of multiple choice. I almost say I do when he asked me about it. And somthing 'slapped' me and I realized how fool I am. I decline what he had ask and I decided to stay. That's really really hard to let someone you love to go. But lo can be a jail for you and you can't go anywhere cause of it.

Gue bersyukur gue dapet 'pelajaran' dari sesuatu yang ga gue duga. Gue belajar untuk ga mempertahankan sesuatu yang ga pantes dapet pembelaan dari gue. Menjadi sebuah pilihan adalah hal yang ga enak. Tapi, menjadi suatu pilihan telah mengajarkan gue satu hal : jangan menjadikan orang lain sebagai satu pilihan buat lo, karena lo udah ngerasain hal itu dan lo ga suka dengan hal itu.

I always dont wanna do something I dont like to another people whether I hate him/her or not. I always try to not hurt someone, whether I love him/her or not. I've copy this one from my facebook's friend's status, Hayley Sun. I kno ure leaving. i kno that smile. can tell u been cryin. ure gonna say goodbye. wish i cud stop u but uve made up ure mind.

Bedanya gue dari status itu adalah gue ga nyoba buat nahan dia dan gue ga berharap banyak bahwa dia akan balik lagi. Engga, man! Cukup sampe disitu aja. Gue bukan orang yang nangis berhari-hari karena suatu hal yang gue rasa ga terlalu berguna dalem idup gue. Bahkan ketika dia mencoba memilih gue atau yang lain, gue bisa menyarankan dia untuk memilih yang lain itu,karena gue ga pantes buat dia, sebab gue bukan pilihan. Gue cewe bukan sepatu, gue manusia bukan manekin, gue cewe asli bukan barbie. maaf barbie, aku tau kita berbeda jauh

For you who almost made me as an option, a few time of my life with you was so great. We stand along and I know it won't so long. And I know today will come, and I don't wanna ask you to get back with me.
For you who often made me smile, thanks for your joke, thanks for your time. Now I let you go. Please don't think bad of me, cause I do it for you, and I don't think of we.
I love you my past, but I'm not an option, it's pretty hard for me to say goodbye. But I stand up and look at your face without any tears and say farewell.
There's no longer we, there's no longer us. Now I just say me, and you just my past.
For you who often made my cry, thanks for that tears. I learn for that teardrop how to survive, and I know how to stand up in a mountain named life.
We step up our life and go forward in the different place. You go with your crowd, and I walk in this silent
In the past, there's 3 words for you : I love you
And now, there's no 3 words for you mean : I hate you
Now, I just go with 2 words for you : Thank you.